Our Growing Baby

Today our baby is 26 weeks and 5 days. As you can see on the picture we are getting big... Baby's ears are better developed and more sensitive right now. I believe he already can hear my voice and my mom's when we talk, and even distinguish which voice it is. The skin started to get smooth and looking all cute. God, I can't wait to kiss this sweet skin, and feel how baby grabs my finger, and looks at me with the beautiful eyes with a confidence that I will never let anything happen to him. I really can't wait for the last months to pass faster. I want to see him so much... I am so thankful to God for our little treasure that grows inside me. I know once I deliver him, I will miss carrying him, cause all these 9 months he was always with me, but then I would have to go back to university and study. It would mean leaving him for few hours. I know he will be in good hands of my mom, but hey, he lived in me for so many months. I actually was developing him with vitamins, reading books, picturing him, eating what he wants, counting his kicks, playing with him and trying not to get upset so that he won't get upset. I know, I will miss all of this... But I know there are so many beautiful and wonderful moments are awaiting ahead of me and all my family... This baby will make a difference not only in our lives, but in every life that he will ever touch...

RIP Little Perfect Boy Benjamin

Today was supposed to be the due date of one of my friends... but... baby died few months ago.... His name was Benjamin... And I want to dedicate today's blog entry to him and his family. This is something that one never wishes anyone to experience. I remember my mom telling me that the worst thing that can ever happen to a parent is to live longer than his/her child... I cannot imagine the pain that my friend and her husband feel. Today baby was supposed to be born, try to open his eyes, smile and make these two people the happiest couple in the world, but, sadly... it won't happen. Yes, my friend will be able to have another child and she will love them so much, however they would never fill the void she will always have with the loss of her little boy Benjamin. I cannot say to them that I feel the pain they feel, because one cannot say this, unless he/she experiences it himself/herself. I pray to God, that I will never have to face this unbearable and horrible pain... All I want to say is without this little boy, this world got smaller and darker... But I hope so much, that he makes everyone smile, laugh, and be happy in Heaven...

My First Post

This is my first post in this blog. While I am writing I feel how our baby kicks inside me. This Baby is only 6 and half months, and he is already loved so much. I picture him every day. I think of how he will look at me, how he will smile. I was told before that when I first got pregnant that I would love this baby more than anything. I denied this at first, but I feel already how much I love our baby, and that I would give my life for him.

I am the happiest woman in whole world... (On the picture our baby is 18 weeks)